Face it!

What is being happening to my life???

 Well…a dream which I nurtured for some long years, shattered before me. I could do nothing about it. May be the reason that I didn’t resist the fall is the sole reason. It is tough time for me in my life. Learning things the hard way now – taking it head on. Well all these may be molding me for the challenges that I should face in life ahead of me. One thing I noticed from all these disastrous happenings of my life is that, it took me very little time to recover than previous times. May be at least I can comfort my mind and not to worry much about it and leave things to happen and face it. I am learning to lie to my own conscious that it doesn’t hurt anymore.. hmm.

Then , am starting to understand the stock market and other financial stuffs.  Seriously thinking of savings  and plan the future. God knows how far I will succeed.

I learned about Income Tax and how they calculate the tax from my salary. Well that is a big thing for me being a accountancy/finance dumbo.

Was playing with the idea of getting married and settling down this year. Again, that too seems to get delayed in a road block that I knew and pretended never knew it.

It happened like , I had a quick chat with some of my seniors at work  place regarding when am I going to get married. It was not a quick chat either, the guy was trying to pull my leg asking when are u getting married? Since I had this idea of settling down this year itself without thinking much I replied to it. Then he just passed some silly comments and walked away. Listening to all these there was one more person, whom I admire a lot, asked – what we discussed. I said that and added the comment that I am already 25 + and all. We were coming down the stairs when we had this talk. He just asked me are you comfortable with your salary to start a family and just walked away as it reached the end of the stairs and we had to merge into the crowd waiting below. It was just a pass by comment or question; I too didn’t take it seriously as it came in a casual talk. But after some moments, when I settled down and was recapturing the events, this particular question came up again. To say the truth, that was something that bothered my thought process but never could find the reason behind that. When I got the question on my face, and pondered over it, I feel it won’t be easy for me to meet the ends if I settle down with a family.

 This got me thinking about my not-so-bad but not-enough-for-anything salary. And one thing leads to another , made me think about getting a better salary , and for that to get a better designation , and for that to switch from the current company , and for that to have better knowledge about the work , and to decide on being serious with work rather than goofing around that I do so often.

So let me be serious for some time now …